Facebook just is NOT an appropriate venue for a lot of the thoughts and feelings I have inside. Sometimes you just need somewhere to dump off all of the things you keep inside. This is what this is going to be used for, as well as a place to try and track my progress from going from cripple kid to a somewhat functional adult female once again. I can't even get .25 miles into a walk without my muscles screaming at me to give in.
I've been making progress over the last year and a half but it's not enough. I have NOT been pushing myself nearly enough. I do give in a lot more than I should. I need to touch that core of fire inside and draw from it but there are so many damned things that I find disheartening.
I don't have an awful lot of support. My family is distant. Maybe I'm responsible for part of that, but there are a lot of unresolved issues. My closest friends are all 40 miles and more away from me.
Truth be told out of that group, there is truly only one that stands by me at all. He has his own series of issues and problems to contend with, though.
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